I've been wanting to write down my trip to Denver. It was a very interesting trip, saying good-bye to friends and making new friends. In six days I covered 3,093 miles, met more people than I could remember their names, even then I have changed the names to protect the not so innocent.
Starting with the beginning, some people may not like that I am giving the whole story it may be edited, I was in Wilmington, NC. My girlfriend had suddenly broken up with me and I left without haste. My original plan was to go to Fayetteville, NC to hang out with friends. I called a friend in Fayetteville, on the verge of tears letting him know I was coming. He said it was cool to come over he was just hanging out at the house.
On my way I called an ex-girlfriend who owed me a trip to the dueling piano bar. I explained what happened. Being the good friend she asked questions, let me know where I went wrong. I showed up and drove out to the bar. While parking she gets a call from a "friend" who only calls on Saturday nights after ten to see what she is doing for the night. She explains that she is going out to hang out with me and she will talk to him later. She thanks me for unknowingly causing jealousy.
At the bar we have a good time, the place is already packed. I score some seats by some people that were leaving. We ended up drinking a couple fishbowls, about a sixty-four ounce drink, and then a few beers. She was questioning my taste in music as how I knew all the country songs that were being sung. We kissed a few times, but only after hearing a song that reminded us of what we once shared.
I was supposed to be the DD, I ended up drinking more than her and I was still sober. That happens when she is 4'11" and ninety pounds. I ended up carrying her to the car over my shoulder. I'm glad she was wearing pants. Driving back to her place I ask her if she wants me to grab my air mattress so I can crash on the floor. She said its cool to crash in the bed. As many of you don't know she has a pit-bull who thinks that she is my girlfriend and slept in between us all night. Nothing even came close to going on, its not the first time we've crashed in the same bed after breaking up.
Getting up early the next morning I was feeling down and the only thing I wanted to do was to be out of there. I was getting ready she asked me if I was going to run with Sir Walters. I told her no, I was just going home. Plus my ex was going to be there. I take off quickly, not knowing it will probably be the last time I ever see her.
On my way back to Greensboro I remember talking to a friend a few days before that they were driving to Fayetteville. I make contact with them and they tell me where to meet them. I skip on the breakfast and crash out in the back of the van for the trip down. Once arriving in Fayetteville, the ex-girlfriend shows up. My heart sinks in a way that is not normally possible, except for when caused by a woman.
The trail that day was uneventful in terms of no personal issues except for opening a dialogue between the two of us. My ride leaves early, on the way back I am concerned with what she has to say to me. She ends up calling about 10 minutes before I at my car. I wait until I am in my car to start that conversation. I am not trying to focus on the negatives in this posting. Why bring up bad feelings?
I get back home and I check on my company's website at open job positions. I see a new one that was posted on Saturday for Denver, Colorado. Early Monday morning I call the company recruiter about the job. She told me the job wasn't open, I told her its on the public website. She takes down my information.
An hour later the Kansas City Terminal Manager calls me to talk to me about the position. We talk and he says it sounds good. Asks when I can be out here. I give him the date of June 2nd. Thinking I would be able to keep my position until a few days before I have to leave. Sadly this wasn't the case and my company hung me out to dry. I am still not happy about it. I did work that Monday night, and Tuesday when I got done I was given my paperwork to sign. I was now Kansas City's problem.
The events leading up to me leaving are quite boring. A lot of waiting and packing, one thing I will mention is the weekend before I left. I was dropping my cat and a few other things off with my ex, the last one not the piano bar one, I knew she would take care of him and I had to put Phoenix's welfare above my own feelings.
I dropped him off Friday night, again I am not trying to bring up negative feelings so Friday night will be skipped. Saturday we had a trail where myself and the ex walked most of the trail.
What we talked about I am not sure, I do remember trying to make myself feel better. I kept telling her about what we will do when she moves out to Denver with me.
We hang out with various people over the course of Saturday, ending with a barbecue at one her friend's houses. Sometime Saturday she asks me if we can ride together to Fayetteville in the morning. It's way out of the way for me, but I know she just wants to be around me for a little longer before I leave.
On the way to Fayetteville Sunday morning we hit tremendous amounts of rain. The trail in Fayetteville is what it is. Nothing special about it. After trail I do not remember much about it, and have to think deeply about what happened. It started to pour down rain again while we were in a Mexican restaurant. I didn't have much of an appetite.
Leaving I said good bye to everyone that had hung around for dinner. Driving back to Rocky Mount I have no idea what we talked about. Trying as hard as I can I can't remember one thing that was said.
Getting back to Rocky Mount I was thinking about the drive home when she told me I could crash there. We ended up sleeping with her on top of the blankets with my poncho liner and me under the blankets. Why? I can't remember.
The next morning she was getting ready for work and I was still sleeping. Eventually I had to get up and leave. As we were saying our good byes in the driveway I was able to hold things together until we kissed for that last time. I lost it and went quickly to my car. I composed myself and started to drive. She had already left, I was a few minutes behind but I saw her backing into her parking space at work.
I was alone now.
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